At the time, I was in my 10th year of being a very active ministerial servant.
I already had my suspicions that I was "waiting on Jehovah" to clarify.
One in particular I could no longer wait on Jah to answer though was regarding me wondering where the holy spirit was in the congregation I attended and if it even operated there.
I already was begining to think it didn't exist. The question was really bothering me. I decided to look online, while "avoiding apostate sites", to see how other religious people might answer this.
Then I stumbled upon JWnet. I just new I shouldn't have kept reading. But I was finding myself relating to experiences I read on here.
I started to see I wasn't the only one with this concern and that it also wasn't local. It was worldwide in the organization.
That got the ball rolling.